Too Many Pillows, Not Enough Girls

As I lie awake in bed, trying relentlessly to fall asleep to the New Jersey traffic outside my window, I reach out, and like trying to stuff my sorrows deep down inside me, I grab a pillow and smother it. Turning over again and again, the pillows are the only things keeping me company in this fit of insomnia. It is frustrating, however, that they just lie there lifelessly, taunting me while they lie still and peaceful and I am at my wit's end helplessly awake in these wee small hours of the morning.
While lying awake, I pass the time a great deal by thinking. I come up with a lot of ideas when I can't fall asleep. I come up with jokes, songs, and a lot of what I write comes to me during these hours of sleeplessness.
I couldn't help but think tonight, how my life would be different, if the number of pillows in my bed was equivalent to the number of women. It sounds crude and maybe a bit vulgar, but as just a thought, it seems harmless to nurture it and think about it some more.
The average male in this day and age has an average of five sexual partners in his lifetime. I read that statistic quite a few years ago, it has surely increased by now, and God knows what it is for women. There are many people I am close to who have had scores of sexual partners within their lives, and they are not much older than me. It seems like I am definitely missing out on something having only pillows to cuddle with.
Then why don't I pursue more sexual endeavors to try and satisfy this urge? Is the desire not great enough? Does it require too much energy and a behavioral archetype I do not possess? Am I too faithful to myself and others for my own good? What is it exactly that keeps me reined in while others are let free to roam as they choose?
If there was an answer to these questions, I do not know them. I simply can say that there are two forces that control the world, which no one can argue with. Those two forces are nature and fate. Nature encompasses all the things that were/are created naturally in this world, everything from the science of physics to the biology of plant life to the psychology of animals. Fate is what ultimately decides the path of the living and nonliving. Often times the fate of a man is controlled by nature, but more often these days, man creates his own fate.